To dare, to dream, to win: July 2005

A resolve!!

One week to go,
before battles unfolds.
New directions in mind,
new goals to score.
Strive i must,
succeed i will.
Encouragements and guidances in hand,
showing actual proof of faith is the only way.

Some thoughts..

Tried at times,
But chances dun come.
Slack at times,
And chances passed.
Time to change,
for a better man.
No point rueing over past chances,
Change and improve for the best.

went for soccer today.. nussd vs ntusd.. sorry bingyuan for being late..better change it.. can't let it be a xi guan lor.. Played 3 matches today, win 2 draw 1... thanks to our star strikers, benny and our jap exchange fren from SUJ(soka uni of jap) and our star defender, also a jap exchange fren from SUA(soka uni of america) and our Superstar goalkeeper Sikang, who is going to be innussd..next time hope i wun be defender again. Sucks at being one..i need to run one leh... hehe

Tired..

Came back home at 1115pm. Tired of cos. Just now after i came home from ippt in the morning, i had a diarrohea. A slight one though. Went to nap for 30min, the most i can afford. Woke up with a awry stomach and lack of energy. Did have the thought of .. if only i can stay home and recuperate. But i know its a WRONG thought! pls, i wun have gotten gold without the thoughts when i was running, i must get gold today! i must go to my ndp rehearsal in high spirits! that's wat keep me going throughout. So, if i get gold and yet skip my rehearsal, isnt it like breaking a promise? and how can i do that after receiving Gohonzon's protection for the run?
yeah, that's why i make sure i reach there. Was bit late meeting andy, paiseh but reach there like nobody like that. Nothing really interesting happened today. Went there, the ground still not done yet. Ended up dancing quite far from the stage. Saw Guo Liang n Michelle Chia today. Nothing much..today we all shared why we joined ycf, our struggles and victories of ycf. Really heartening to see how they achieved some of their personal victories.
But oh ya, sidetrack a bit, today take ippt at maju wat,, then saw this really cute litter of 3 kittens. 2 of them are fighting or playing, really cute to see how they roll ard..anyway tired. Time to slp. Last of my bz days tmr...

"Faced with an obstacle,
High as mountain.
Avoiding it not,
Overcome i must!"--YL

$400 woot!!

it doesn't matter that i only had 4+ hr of sleep yesterday. It also doesn't matter that the plastic of back of my shoe is broken such that it keep cutting on my foot till it bleed at the end. Neither does it matter that the stupid number tag is too loose that i have to keep holding to it throughout the run. I did it! yes i did. Determination's the key. And of cos thanks to the many ppl who wished me luck, i cannot let them down, can I? Not the tip top condition for a 2.4km run. The lack of sleep seriously make me damn tired b4 the run. Not to mention the fact that i was totally unsure of the route and i am so sway that zh was a different detail and running batch from me. So, i was totally alone. Lost i will say. And it's not track so it's seriously difficult to gauge my speed. And i happened to be the 1st of my batch, the 1st to run. I started out fast, the 1st that is.. till a mad man started to overtake me and ran at such fast speed which i decide to use him at a gauge. And at the 1st 400m mark, my stop watch read 1:24..omg..so freaking fast. but that guy cmi at the 600m liao, cos he seem to slow down considerably. And the 1st rd, 800m, reads 2:54. Mad timing. As i say, i'm lost at the start, till the point i didnt even set a pace for myself. But after that, i use the "duck song" the fast pace rhythm as gauge, though sometime i ended up at the slow pace end. The 1st rd is really too fast lar, 2nd rd i slowed down considerably too. Really have the wish to stop. Zh missed out on his gold cos of his sbj again, though his running is so freaking zai at 9:19 today. Hope he will strive for gold on tue. $200 more leh! Anyway, I know if i nv get gold today, i still can take again with him on tue or sth. But that's negative thinking. So i know i can't stop. I mustnt. I have to persevere. 2nd rd was a slow 3:18, with the number tag wanting to drop, totally spoiling my rhythm. And at the 3rd rd, the skin kept getting cut. Pain of cos. But towards the end, it was numb to me.
At the 2km mark, it was ard 8 min, 1:44 for the last 400m. I have come so far, of cos i can't give up lor. So the final time is 9:36. Was happy shuttle run turned out to be a breeze. Or maybe the PTI is good ba, everyone in my detail under 10sec i think, while i got a surprising 9.3sec. Maybe, the only regret is seriously not getting perfect score of 25/25 and the station i nv do it is actually get it is acutally pull up!!! can't believe it. -_-.. did 11, was struggling abit so i heck care, cos i thought my shuttle run might get shit in e end. Well, wrong attitude. But nvm lar, over liao and its $400! As if they will put there platinum gold even if u do it..

Woot!!

hehe saw this from shui hui's blog.. so someone did take pic of fiona dancing last sun!! woot!

Hot..

HOt..

HOT!!

Yawnz

slept at 3am yday. Didn't go to sch today. So ended up sleeping without setting any alarms, the 1st time w/o an alarm from dunno since when. Needed the sleep. IPPT tmr Ended up waking with aching shoulders and aching teeth though. Wun cause too much problem i believe. Just called YL regarding the laptop. Maybe not a good idea not to go sch. Cos still can order the packageless one. But according to YL, the person say must wait at least 2 weeks. Actually isn't it cfm must wait one? maybe the catch is "at least". Havent thought of a plan B yet. Nvm, mon going to sch, shall do it then. Tired neh..okok i'm lazy. Oh watever. At least, dun procrasinate even further..as i blogged b4 from HR...

"When a person sees the need to do something, he ought to act with courage and good faith. To hold back and to procrastinate can invite great loss. There is no sense in spending a lifetime hesitating."

So sian..

[28Jul05] Basic Package at S$2,183 is not available for sale until further notice.
The laptop too freaking cheap till out of stock... damn it! Wait? ya shall wait.. wat to do? thinking of plan b also

A bz next 3 days...

next 3 days shd be darn tiring for me.. tmr morning will be going to sch for my lappie! too bad no money, cannot cash n carry =(.. then tmr evening will be our NUSSD study meeting cum dialogue session till 930 or later.. reach home ard 11 liao. And i better sleep liao .. cos sat morning is my IPPT !! tat's at 730 at maju, but must reach 15 min earlier. Means i must prob have to wake up at 5+ 6..so early. After IPPT, which i must and i will get a gold, still have to go home immediately and rush down to tampines for ndp preview/ full dress rehearsal. Heard that will end at 8-9pm. And sun morning 10am, its soccer! NUSSD vs NTUSD! wonder if i still got the energy to run. Just hope it will be a gg! Then, go home, have a good rest b4 JC class dinner at nite..wat a long 3 days it will be! but a well-spent one cfm.. Gearing up for sat..

Need to change need to change!!

haiz.. being playing too much games and sleeping late these days! bad! Come on, sch's starting. This is definitely what i shd do. I cannot discard the resolve i made for myself. Better do sth about it. Play too much game, my mind also became less active and quick-witted..darn it. Change change change!!

A really meaningful poem in HR vol 3...

Shin'ichi (Ikeda sensei) battled alongside with his mentor, Toda sensei and one day he wrote this in this diary, translated in english to be:

"I ask, why do you suffer?
I ask, why do you weep?
I ask, why are you in pain?
To suffer is good: the young bud must break
the shell of earth to grow upward.
To weep is good: after the gloom of the rain,
one loves the sight of the distant sun more.
To be in pain is good: to appreciate the
magnificence of dawn, one must pass through the darkest night."

The most absurd request..

that time when i 1st started working, worked 1 day at 3M , 5 hrs at $6 per hr.. Then the next day went for the shelves installation job, so someone else took over me, and the pay cheque is given to him. That time jw was supposed to meet him for basketball, so i asked him to pass jw the $$. He say next time. Now he suddenly msg me saying "can i keep the $30? ;) " am i supposed to say yes based on NO REASON?

Shock in the morning..

saf sure like to do that to me. 2nd time liao. i must wake up to receive an sms to call a certain number cos i have an NS call-up notification. That 1st time is ICT. 12 days. i thought that is bad enuff, and mob just over, what else could that be? call the number. Ask me go back for training ( i think) on 6th Sep 1500-1900. At 1st was thinking.. isit briefing for ICT? high chance yes. Then i supposed it shd be a saturday. ok lor.. lan lan. But no. See calender. A tue.. sch had started.. and tue is a lab day. How do i go for briefing?! ok, if no lab, then at most sacrifice the lecture, go back lor. No point missing the briefing since i dunno anyone from my unit yet and missing the briefing i jialat liao. Was planning to check the lab timetable liao. But strangely, i decided to access miw 1st.. and it say there "IPPT briefing + test".. i was like .. what the! i wun waste my time go back for that. not on a weekday. So called back to the unit and whew! cos i havent taken my ippt yet. So they send tat to make sure ppl like me go and take it. The clerk say can ignore that ippt. Well i shall do just now. Anyway i will taking it this sat, and i will get gold. Who cares about the 6th sep one?

Some more photos!

taken by cheng yu at www.photo.net/photodb/folder.tcl?folder_id=512889

forget something..

yesterday only post a few photos.. here's the link to all the photos taken.. hopefully more to come! =)
http://www.kodakgallery.com/BrowsePhotos.jsp?&collid=62135889208

A little bit more..

thx to zh who paced me again.. ran 9:33 on track. the 1st 4 rd was rather relaxing .. till my stomach create havoc again with a slow 5th rd of ard 1:44 min i suppose but the last round was good. SBJ shouldnt be a problem cos i just try jumping in my house.. hehe..left shuttle run! my nitemare! last year ippt lucky can run and run.. ran like 7 times b4 i get 10:02..but luckily it didnt affect my 2.4km after tat also. well, this time i must 1 shot 1 kill.. get GOLD on 1st attempt!

WOW!!

Fiona xie came to our training today!! she sure is HOT!!! why didn't anyone took photo of her when she did "to te to te"? people shd see how she can shake! darn! but well, ll managed to take a photo of her using her camera phone! maybe can ask her send to me! hehe..
fun apart. It's rather sad that not everyone can participate in the ndp itself, cos of the space constraint. Haiz. Who in who out.. in the end, someone has to sacrifice. Haiz. Well it's part of the Buddhism rite? Anyway, i'm too old. Should let the young ppl enjoy themselves.
Think, ponder, decide.

All we can hope is to pray for the best possible outcome. Hopefully, everyone can somehow participate in the ndp itself. And what everyone who are taking part in the actual thing must do is to put up the best possible performance!

YCF photos!

Block A ppl at our last training

Block C ppl at our last training

Block D ppl performing for us!

I got peace by the river...

I got peace by the river...R&R during
Damai Sec Sch rehearsal so we play game!

Some of the NUSSD Shuai Ges!

Block A gers!

NUSSD Shuai Ges with a cute gym core boy in the middle!

Told ya ming hui buaya lor.. LOL!

Block C ppl at 2nd day of YCF!

Block B!!

Finally, Block "Ace"! Victorous success!

Our trainers!

Our trainers 2!

SD Day!

SD day yesterday. What a heartening session. Heard a rather moving testmonial by a ITE new friend who managed to change his life through YCF."Changing life, creating victory" YCF sure did it. there's the japanese clog performance by HQ1, sambal dance by HQ2 and our bollywood dance, and the appointment of IICs and CICs.. congrats to Ming hui and bing yuan on the appointment as IIC .. i believed they will definitely do a good job in leading NUSSD to greater heights!

Wohoo!!

heard that fiona xie is attached to our group. think tat means our block! wahaha.. and we will be shown on ndp show at 7:42:55 to 7:45:55.. Everyone remember to watch!!

Arrgh!!

wat's the 2cm swollen lump doing on my face.. pls disappear by tmr!!

Results out..

no more surprises.. M1 derrick and F4 kelly got it. Feel sad that M2 Leon didn't get to stay. If that vote-buying M2 jason of last last week didn't get in, Leon will confirm get in today .. well, too bad ..life's nv fair. F3 chanel got eliminated. Her singing isn't tat good, but feel sad she got out.. liked her style n her looks..but once again, if kelly isn't eliminated that time, things will again be different. Nvm, kelly will definitely win the competition, nice voice, cute sweet looks..gosh!

Haiz..

sometimes really hate myself for being mute when i shdn't be. Really nothing to say? or just dun wan to say? Darn it..this black spot is wat made me join soka, and i MUST achieve my human revolution on this part.. it's still far away..

A long way to go..

to accept the responsibility of CIC..still got much to learn, much to do..haven't really open up yet, still quite new to everyone..qingwei and chengyu can take up the responsibility 1st ba, while i need to receive even more training.. hehe
Finally finish the 2 books on HR.. took so long. so much distraction and i read slow ma.. somemore have to check online dictionary for unknown vocab.. hehe..anyway the books are quite interesting and inspiring. Hopefully minghui will lend me vol 3,4 tmr and i must double my reading speed liao. Currently also reading NHR vol 4 and The World of Nichiren Daishonin's Writing vol 4 on bus/mrt.. but realised read too many books in one go, lose track of wat i reading .. and now i dunno wat to read..maybe shall wait for HR vol 3,4 =)

So concidental..

was reading till pg 247 of HR vol 2 when i glanced up and noticed that the time was 0247!! oh well. time to slp...

whew..

nearly cause a flood in my house. Absent minded me forget to off the tap in the kitchen, and b4 i know it, the water filled the whole 2 sinks and overflow onto the floor. Somehow, strangely, the drainage system not working well huh..the water flowing so slow still can overflow.. but feel lucky i'm watching tv outside.. if i'm in my room playing game, i wun have heard the overflowing water and that's it..whew!

This shall be the last straw...

I can't allow myself to break any resolutions and promises anymore... 190705, a firm resolution made to start my own human revolution!

post-YCF syndome..

think many of us are suffering from post-YCF syndome..as quickly as it had come, as quickly as it's gone..was chatting with mcvin yday via yday. He told me that him and sikang both missed ycf. Well, that is so true.. all the wonderful memories and everything. Though we still have the ndp performance at tampines with fiona xie, but that one is something totally different from the ycf itself.. i missed the atmosphere of ycf, i missed the ywd dance, the youth item.. it's really wonderful to see how ppl from different backgrounds coming together to perform for this ycf. As the youth chief said, each ticket is really to touch the heart of each individuals to come to watch the performance, and i do it had touched the hearts of each and every of the audience of the 3 shows..the effort, the sweat, the tears put in by everyone..
and it's so heartening to see that ppl u do not know, ppl from the other items, eg the rainbow orchestra (oops forget to thank them for their wonderful CO performance for ycf) , ywd, even the make-up aunties, are cheering for u when u are on ur way into the performance and after the performance. where else will u see such unity?!!?..
YCF '05, my 1st, but definitely not the last, performance for SSA, will definitely be deeply remembered.. and i MUST strengthen my faith for kosen-rufu!!

Wow..

ok its wow.. not WOW ( World of Warcraft)..read the Digital Life for today. Couples got matched up through games...as chow always say " i wan a gf who play WOW also".. maybe next time Digital Life feature such an article, we will see him inside.
Another wow is for the article on bloggers' comments on the NKF incident. they talked abt that crude but hilarious article in rockson's blog. and the newspaper actually put the link "http://rockson.blogspot.com/2005/07/nkf-boss-got-
cheebye-12-months-bonus.htm l" in the newspaper.. ok lar.. it's just a link, but who dunno what that word "cb" means...

Something meaningful from HR vol 2..

"When a person sees the need to do something, he ought to act with courage and good faith. To hold back and to procrastinate can invite great loss. There is no sense in spending a lifetime hesitating."

Finally..

the end of YCF 2005. Actually i rather it not end. What a great experience! and i believe the good memories will last me forever. It's really a good fortune to be able to participate in this once in 5 years. Really hope to wish many many ppl, but dunno where to start, but well here goes....
1) all the participants of all the 3 HQs performance..the time and effort put in by all the participants and the PASSION that everyone showed.. but must special mention to HQ3 participants.. hehe.. everyone is brillant !! how can i forget the cute lower PD who shook their butts.. so "tian zhen wu xie", or the upper PD who are so energetic in their "reach for the star" dance. The FD dance was power too in their hip hop style, and the Kotekitai's band performance with the cute young gers with the baton. and the YWD in their dance with a twist from yoga to kick boxing dance and the artistic dance of the Youth item and of cos the gym item by YMD.. 8 performances in total compared to only 3 of urs and theirs is seriously high risk. and the 4 div choir of cos for bringing up the spirit in the performance..well well enuff said..
2) the makeup crew.. make us look nice nice, look like indians.. hehe.. they are there for all the 8 shows also and i come at 8am today they are here already.. can see how early they come and they have to wait till the final show start b4 they can go.. burning 3 weekends is not fun ok.. but they did it with no regrets!
3) the logistics ppl..directly traffic, do all the sai gang.. heard today we are supposed to come at 8am, they come at 6am and after we finish they still have to keep the mess
4) our trainers, who always arrived like 1 hr early for each of the training, singingm entertaining us at time.. of cos special mention to block A trainers!! 1stly, LOUIS for calling me to inform me of the time of trainings and even sending an extra sms after that. SIKANG for being the cheerleader of our block, always leading us in all the cheers and thanks for the jelly and sushi u made..and lastly SHUHUI..so emotional...dun cry hor..
5) block A ppl !!.. so glad to know a bunch of wonderful guys/gals! .. the asd guys/gals.. deborah, ruofang, jun hui, jefferson, marcus. nv talk much to u guys but u ppl sure raise the level of spirit in our block.. also terrence and his cousin, andy, who become my WHOOSH buddy today..haha. and mcvin and geng li, 2 playful asses... and ppl from NUSSD, minghui, changjie, cai yuan, guang ming, quan zhang..
6) oh ya, nearly forget. the YWD and MD who stayed back to do the door gifts, almost every afternoon to nite...8k in total. heard that they rushed out 7400 in the last week! twisting the wire, pasting all the stars together is seriously not easy at all.
7) the daimoku chanted by mcvin, sikang, minghui, shuhui too i supposed and other ppl in my block to pray that i can be back for my performance yesterday after i got mobilised.. and the daimoku everyone chanted for the success of all the performance. thanks alot!
Hopefully i nv left out anyone.. really grateful to be in this ycf.. if got chance hopefully i can join the next one 5 years later.. or maybe ndp next year so can meet up with all the great guys!!

Happening day!!

sorry for using the same heading as yesterday's post. If i got a choice, i will change the heading for yesterday's post. What's yesterday compared to today??!
Reached toa payoh stadium at 12. Actually when 1pm arrived, i already thinking "The next 2 hrs is critical." 2pm arrived. Nothing happened. but when there was only 40 min left, just after the 1st trial run, my hp vibrated. Fear gripped my heart. Private number. Oh no. I nv pick up at the 1st call, so preparing for the worst, i waited for the hp to ring again. "You got mobilised, report by 1630".. well done..but i know tonite's performance i will be there..yes i must. tat mean i must be back by toa payoh by 630, latest.
Anyway, reach home at ard 3. set off at 330. got the cab immediately when i got downstairs, when the cab was going to turned into the main road somemore. Reached selerang camp by ard 4. The taxi driver not sure where is the camp, but luckily he went the correct way. Paid $14.80..
Went in ,scanned 11b. The clerk told me 284..so i was like "oh ok". went to queue at the 284 queue. anyway, the queue's long. then queuing half way i thought. "eer, arent i supposed to be under 9div HQ artillery?" and there i go, to queue under there. The queue's really short. Maybe HQ really = slack. but then when it's my turn.they say i not under HQ. damn it. that means re-queuing up. But suddenly they called for ppl born in 1983. talking about luck? that means skipping the queue. after tat, it's check field pack.. and off to home!!
managed to reach home by ard 455. paid $16 cos the taxi driver made wrong turn -_- .. told him turn straight he say nv hear, still say i speak softly.. set off at 530 by cab again, and it cost another $12 + with surcharge. gosh.. admiralty to toa payoh, which seems so near, yet it cost a bomb..anyway the performance is really successful, if not for my sore throat..but still managed to shout..anyway tmr's one gonna be better!! it will!

Happening day..

Went sh house play soccer + basketball. Mr Lr suddenly got possessed, thinking he was Jonny Wilkinson, kicking the volleyball (which we used as soccer ball) over the 3+ m fence.. into the canal. Power. If only he used more power and kick it over instead of into the 5m wide canal.
Went Holland V for dinner. Mr Chow saw lin xiang ping at thai express, and saw that "da zui yu" of "tong xin yuan" at settler's cafe. He sure is good at "star-spotting" .. hehe
17++ hr to actual peformance.. it gonna be good weather at toa payoh sports hall, I wun be mobilised for tmr (acutally today), the whole show must be successful, and everything's gonna be the best!!!

From Guidance today..

"Youth who lose their courage can no longer be called youth. Youth are the ultimate champions of courage and peace. To be young in itself is to be a noble champion who possesses boundless treasure and hope. I would like all of you to speak out with such conviction and power that others will be moved and inspired" -- Daisaku Ikeda

Some thoughts..

Everyone has his/her own problems,
when you think you are in dire straits,
do remember,
there are many others who are in worse state than you,
if they can overcome all that, why can't you?
instead of despairing, thinking it's the end of things,
why not actively go all out and change things for the better?

Haiz..

sore throat + headache...sian. the 3 obstacles and 4 devils have appeared!

Sore throat

sucks! arrgh.. going run tmr... hope everything will be ok tmr.. bz week this week..YCF just ard the corner. ok, i mean it's 4 days later!! so fast! Hope everyone must turn up that day!

I must get gold!!

went bukit gombak to run 2.4km with zh.. hitting the track again after 10 mth away from it, and 1st time running again after ard 2mth..quite a struggle, feel like giving up at time during the run, but thanks to zh, who encourage n paced me, managed a 9:52... well that's much better than i thought.. ok, time to achieve the gold .. $400's a lot.. i must do it! i need the $$$!!! but of cos my shuttle run, sbj all need some training also...it's not far from it, slowly but surely!

Haiz..

when there's not even enuff in the 1st place.. wat can u do?!?!?

My favourite song for this week...

will be our "Hot hot hot!" dance song! it shall be the only song on my playlist for this one week! well, that is till i really dun wan to listen it lia.. hehe

Darn...

i feeling itchy again.. signs of a disturbing nite cannot? cannot!! i got training tmr! could it really be allergic reaction? if so, could it be the milo? arrgh. can't bear to think of it..nothing will happen to me tonite.. i will go for my training tmr!!

Nice performance..

just went to watch the performance by HQ2. Power. Nice modern dances, ever-changing colourful formations, and they sure got a huge force compared to us. But nvm, they are good, but we will do better! They got high spirit, but we will show the same, if not higher, levelof spirit with much less ppl! yes we will! being listening to our dance song day n nite.. so i can get more attached to the song! =) ..oh by the way, we will also be performing for ndp this year at tampines.. Heard that fiona xie will be joining in our dance, that means she might join us for our practice too! but think she will be trained by the trainers only ba..

Finally..

my fren passed me the CD with the photos of the performance at Expo last sat.. i look sucks. So, shall just post some of the photos. The shitter ones i shall reserve it for whoever ask from me.. =p

The guys!

The gers!!

All of us!!

Half-dead

It doesn't feel good to have whole body, other than the face, itching with red spots, as if kena 100 mosquitoes bite like that. Lucky, the medicine cream helps, else i will be grounded at home today. But red patches are still springing out like nobody's business. Sleep at 3+ yesterday, but still awake at 4. Itching till 5+6 when i finally put the cream and go to sleep.. haiz..tired!!!!

Rigged result!!

wth! m2 nv get booted out? lowest among them. and i believe m3 got lots of supporters also. yet, m2 got in instead. and the gals' side. f1 got a lot of judges' praises on improvement. yet, pls! wat's so good about her? No looks. No figure. Voice sucks compared to f2. Not to say f4. Gosh! pui pui pui! stupid results. Must be rigged!! m2 scare nobody support him? NVM! he support himself! i dunno how much a vote cost. i believe it to be 20cent, or at most 30cents. Someone just need fork out that $2k $3k per round, which is equivalent to 10k votes. And come on, i dun believe there will be even 10k votes on each participant. 5k is more like it. And that, is only $1k-1.5k. Damn rigged competition. They shd charge $5 for each sms/call. The remainder they can give to charity. This can almost cfm restrict 1 vote per person and prevent unfair cheating

Pissed!!

Was supposed to blog something.. but damn com.. something's wrong with it. Suddenly a blue error screen appear, and the next second, the com auto restart by itself!! darn it..arrgh lose my mood to write anything.

Turning zombie soon.......

darn it, in 3 hrs, i woke up at least 3 times. Wat the hell..argh. Feeling damn seh n tired now. I better get some sleep later in the afternoon... haiz

Insomnia!

think i have been sleeping too late these days.. darn it, why am i reverting back to my old days? change change change! Anyway, not able to sleep well these few days.. keep having strange dreams and end up keep gettint up so many times at nite.. haiz. must sleep early!

Not a bad day after all..

today's quite a nice day after all.. met chow n sh at sim lim, after which we went to watch "War of the Worlds". The movie overall will only be an average, cos the ending of the movie is seriously lame, just a rather abrupt way to end the show. Alien invasion. Aliens seemed invulnerable. Suddenly they are defeated. Thanks to bacteria on Earth...Wat the?! Dunno why Life! can give it 4 stars, esp when it usually give low ratings for movies.Only regret today is .. i nv get to buy new shoes...
Today's training is "Hot hot hot!!!" the name of our item.. Sweated it all out, i believed everyone did the same!Well, there are still many things that need to be improved, the spirit esp, must really jia you..we can do it!

breathe in, breathe out

stupid braces must be funny early in the morning. Now the pain is making me weak n my mood's down again. The pimples which pop up after my make-up on sat doesnt make things better.No matter what, i better try to elevate my mood 1st b4 i go out, real soon.

but there is something i'm really not happy abt. Not the 1st time i enter the lift n smell smoke. Not the 1st time i enter a lift with an inconsiderate idiot smoking inside when there is a sign in the lift that says "No smoking". Maybe its too small. Maybe they can't read. Or maybe cos the authorities forget to include the words, "Fine $500". Anyway, just now i saw another of these inconsiderate freaks. Just bought my lunch, walking to the lift when i saw 3 women, 2 middle-aged ones, and 1 BIG-sized one who look younger, chatting while waiting for the lift. Next second i smell the smoke n found its that BIG-sized woman smoking. Entered the lift with them, and that BIG-sized smoker enter the lift with her cigarette. Obviously, those women are neighbours since they are all going to the 8th floor, while i have to endure that stupid smoke till the 9th floor.
That smoker seriously is inconsiderate. Even if the rest of the women are unhappy or uncomfortable with the smoking, they wun also sound it out, for fear of retraining their relationship or watever. But that big-sized woman just take it for granted. Or maybe, the rest of the women all used to it liao. Oh, watever. I should have warned the smoker to quit her habit, cos her physical appearance showed possible signs of hypertension. She wun wan smoking to worsen that pt.

From Guidance Today..

"No one becomes great without a struggle. All of life is a struggle. Only those who have faced and triumphed over adversity possess genuine greatness; without this struggle, no matter how famous or celebrated one may be, any claim to greatness is merely an empty facade." --Daisaku Ikeda

Blur me........

today think i gave slightly wrong directions to jeff who was asking how to go to NP from toa payoh..told him to take 157 but think it's not really correct, cos only stop near NP...diao..hope he managed to find his way in the end.. stupid me..must change must change!

Braces...

having it on sometimes can really give u mood swings. Suddenly all my teeth can start to ache, and down goes my mood.. sucks! maybe it's my tiredness n my bloated stomach.. waste my $$ go suffer.............

All-Out Prayer

SUCCESS OF YCF!!

Wohoo!

today's performance is a success! and think we enjoyed urselves tremendously today(that's wat most impt isn't it? haha), esp how we made so much noise during the dance itself showed it all. Yeah, we are supposed to make as much sound/noise as possible to show the liveliness of our dance, n i think its really a success. Actually even b4 the dance, when we are expecting the GOH, we are like swaying, clapping, 'kallang waving' to the music, basically having fun =) .. too bad there was the same mistake at e last part.. bit obvious huh..hehe..
but anyway today, i was really feeling hot.. RED hot! thanks to the red "eye-liner" ( is that wat it is called?) and the red blusher, i was really like a red devil! actually its all for my garang-ness as the 1st guy with the red costume to go in the make-up tent and become the guinea pig..hehe..shall show u all the pic when mh send me.. even myself got shocked when i look at myself in the mirror.. Must really thank the WD n YWD, who go there so early; as early as 8am in the morning; to put make up for the 1000 + participants...really is "xin ku" them liao.. though its a Youth Cultural Festival peformance, but actually almost all the divisions of SSA is involved..really an effort of everyone! 3 more shows to go... Success is the only key! Pray that i will be able to participate in the rest of the shows!

Success of YCF tmr!!

tmr we will be 'showcased' in HQ1 YCF performance... with Mr Mah Bow Tan as Guest of Honour cos their YCF performance is collaboration with the North Region CDC or sth..just hope the YCF performance for the 3 weeks will be successful!!

Control control!!!!

arrgh, just received my hp bill, another shock.. dunno why my calling time keep exceeding these 2 mths... pissed!!! cannot let it happen again!!

Shock!!

just finish watching the results of the 绝对 Superstar. When they 1st call M2, M3 n M4 up to stage, actually it can be expected who will be eliminated. Not M3 of cos, since he got the highest pt among the 3, n can see that he got lots of supporters. That leaves M2 n M4. M2 got slightly higher pt than M4 but well, as expected M2 got eliminated. Think they both sang lousily, but well M4 with that cute face of his makes it too obvious that he will stay, somemore M2 got chided by the judge for boosting about his face, though i dun see anything great about his face..haha
Nth unexpected from the 1st rd of the gal elimination, the lowest of the 3 is eliminated.. but wat happen next is rather shocking....
2nd rd of guy elimination..M5, given the highest pt at 37, in the competition so far, got eliminated. The other 2 got 32.. actually i'm secretly hoping that M6 got eliminated.. can't stand his face, his dress sense n even his voice. But it's M5 instead.. Haiz..not that i think much of his voice also..and that 5 pt advantage he got is also not a lot, but really unexpected. But, if i not wrong, he's not a singaporean, he's a malaysian. The lack of support from friends says it all..think that's partly the reason why that Indo-Chinese got eliminated last week too. Actually relying too much on sms voting is not fair also. AI used that too, but seriously, if there is no cap to the number of votes u can cast, its seriously unfair. Somemore, the number of ppl who watch n voted for 绝对 Superstar is definitely much smaller, wun be surprised someone who can actually buy himself/ herself a singing contract... F6 today seems rich, if that car is hers..who knows she might win, over that possibly best female singer last week, F2

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